I ate at the 21st Birthday and then yesterday was Fathers-Day so I had some lunch, my fasting started again today until Sunday, on Monday the 28th I'll start the ABC diet and hopefully get my piercing.
I am 1 Kg away from my 1st milestone weight, 50 Kg's. And after the fast I'll be heading for Goal Weight Number 2 ,47 Kg.
It's Soccer fever and seeing as I live in the host country, we get off early tomorrow.
On more serious note...or I guess life and time consuming, my thoughts are all over the place, I have been contemplating the worst thoughts, and I don't think cutting is enough this time, I'm just so tired of trying, and more than tired, ready but too scared of dying.
My BF just seems so disinterested these past 2 weeks and truly... I can't handle it, some days I just want to tell him everything, but then he would actually want me to stop what I'm doing, and I really don't want to right now. He told me that I'm getting too skinny...Have you ever felt that to be the wrong thing??? Because I haven't, it's just motivation, I'll stop when I feel it's enough...and that's not now.
Venting Session for today done...strawberry urgencies only making their appearances now.
Goodnight South Africa...Hello Fasting day 2.
Who Am I
- ToWriteLoveOnHerArms
- 21 Years Old, Female, Boyfriend Attached To The Hip, The Hip I Want To Jut Out And Fit In Perfectly With My Matching Collar Bones and Skintight Legs, While Taking Away Attention To My Beautiful Red Lines Scattered Across My Arms Like Ladders, Snakes Roam There, They Roam In My Mind, and Tell Me I'm Insane and I Have A Death Wish. But That's Just Me, I'm One of Millions Sharing A Piece Of My Story.
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