Today ( better said, perched over the porcelain) I realized that at the moment skinny is everything, I love my BF with all my heart, and I thought how this might influence him...but I'll keep on pretending, if he doesn't notice it himself, then there isn't anything to notice, is there.
But I'm not talking about weight, I'm talking about skinny chances, we all make mistakes we run from...I'm just getting in shape I guess, confusing post, but truthful to me at least.
Who Am I
- ToWriteLoveOnHerArms
- 21 Years Old, Female, Boyfriend Attached To The Hip, The Hip I Want To Jut Out And Fit In Perfectly With My Matching Collar Bones and Skintight Legs, While Taking Away Attention To My Beautiful Red Lines Scattered Across My Arms Like Ladders, Snakes Roam There, They Roam In My Mind, and Tell Me I'm Insane and I Have A Death Wish. But That's Just Me, I'm One of Millions Sharing A Piece Of My Story.
Sunday, August 15
Tuesday, August 3
Cutting Not Enough Anymore?
Scars are healing, and fading away...and then got me thinking if I really want to go through all this again, Summer is almost here, and I don't want to HAVE to cover up,then I read this post on one of 'PrettyThin' members signatures:
The Girl That Seemed Unbreakable-Broke
The Girl Who Seemed Strong- Crumbled
The Girl Who Always Laughed- Cried
She Faked A Smile As A Tear Ran Down Her Cheek and Whispered...
"I Can't Do This Anymore"
and you know what? Maybe I can't.
I just ate McDonalds out of spite, and though it may seem like nonsense to a reader, it's one of the worst thing for me...I can't get it out of my system and it's breaking me just that little bit more...soon there won't be pieces to break anymore.
Monday, August 2
Water Fast or ABC Diet?
I have been following the ABC for a week, but over the weekend, I did binge a bit, not without purging but since I had the nightmare about Ana and Mia ...I just can't eat without purging...Mia is very strong.
But I am currently still on my 1st goal weight and I need to lose 5 Kg's in 20 Days.
I am currently deciding between the ABC diet and a downright 10 day water fast, or longer if I can manage, I know the water fast will get me there, I just don't have the willpower...I started with it just in case I want to continue with it, but the ABC will keep the weight off permanently,
I just don't want to start with 500 cals, I'm to afraid I'll binge and then want to purge...
I hate ever becoming Ednos...
I just want normalcy again...when my current weight made me feel beautiful.
But I am currently still on my 1st goal weight and I need to lose 5 Kg's in 20 Days.
I am currently deciding between the ABC diet and a downright 10 day water fast, or longer if I can manage, I know the water fast will get me there, I just don't have the willpower...I started with it just in case I want to continue with it, but the ABC will keep the weight off permanently,
I just don't want to start with 500 cals, I'm to afraid I'll binge and then want to purge...
I hate ever becoming Ednos...
I just want normalcy again...when my current weight made me feel beautiful.
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